My ex boyfriend asked me to marry him or at least be his fiance after i graduate from college?

2 years ago he broke up with me because i was around too much and he wasnt ready for us and he said he had self issues to fix. within to years he left the church band we were in together before but we sometimes walked passed each other at school. He graduated first. when i got sick and nearly died and he hasn’t stopped asking for another chance but ive always been running away from him since we broke up. i changed my numbers for like 10 times already and i even left the church when he came back to the band a year ago. still he’d call me, text me, and come over the house but i continually refused him sometimes angrily. i was too hurt. sooo scared he’ll do it again. i said no to his proposal. im sooo scared i’d lose him though but im just so scared to be hurt again that he hasnt changed. just 3 weeks ago he left for holiday vacation and dropped by before his flight. as usual, i treated him the same, then he stopped communicating. he’s back in town. what does it mean?
and what should i do??

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